We control relationships in our life by withholding love.

We control relationships in our life by withholding love. 

We do the same thing to God.  We withhold access to our soul.  We deny Him the access to love us.  We'll show Him.  Then we spend the rest of our lives trying to find love on our own.  We try to fill the insatiable void by our own will.... We try to play God and satisfy our own soul by staying busy, by creating a fantasy world that we believe we can control to extract love out of when we feel we need it.....

Wow, love is so full, so vast, so complete, it has no substitue.  No substitute.  We know this in our soul, yet we still try to duplicate it because that would be the only way to be self-sufficient.  If I can just fill the void.... I can control my own life and not need anything or anyone else.  This is true, but the source for this euphoric state of being is God, and we have to give up control and our will to experience it.  Problem is, we have been hurt and it's not right.  So we have to make a decision whether we want to be right or righteous.  Whether we want to be right or rich.  Whether to be right or happy.  We do have rights, and we also have control.  Both of these cost us our relationship with God through Adam and Eve.  We still, to this day, make the same choice Adam did - to live in our own will and choose seperation from God. 

The difference is we have the ability to get back our surrendered state of obedience.  We get it back by allowing God to love us.  This happens when we begin to surrender to God's presence which is already pushing in on us from every direction.  Even as you read this, you can  begin to feel God's love pushing into every crack of hope beginning to develop in the walls of your heart.  The hope that God really does have your best interest in mind.  The hope that if you trust God, that He will begin to move in your favor and your innermost dreams will come true. 

As you read this God is pushing on those cracks, but even now your thoughts fight back against believing, because if it's not true, it will hurt too much, so why take the risk.... but what if you did take the risk?  What if you chose to believe and take the risk....  What if you surrendered all your deepest hurts to God and allowed Him to push through the cracks and caress your soul with His love....  Even if for just a moment to see what would happen....  He pushes 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.  His love never stops pushing to find a crack to get into your soul.  Never ever ever ever.....  God is pushing right now against your soul.  The only thing that can stop Him from actually coming in is you.... 

What if.... you just let Him in.  What if you just let His love have its way with your soul.... What if you let Him touch you deep in your soul....  What if you let His love touch you at the deepest parts of your soul, to travel deep into parts you have never let another even know was there.  What if you allowed His loving peace to saturate the very pores of your soul and seep into the depths and crevises of the core of your being until every place was full.  Even if just to experience it once in your life.